Dark days...

Hey readers.. School has been great for me. Classmates are awesome. My CCA, dance is great too.. Well I think I'm starting to have a lot of doubts. I don't know. Since the course I'm in isn't my first choice. I'm the only one who choose something else as their first choice and I feel very different. I'm scared I wouldn't make it alive in this course. I don't know about this but I feel like I'm not letting someone get into this course because of me. Someone else may have work their ass to get into the course that I'm in and because of me,that person couldn't get into it. I'm also very stressed about the upcoming school projects. It's very new to me and I'm not sure I can handle all these in this short amount of time.

And most importantly, I miss my secondary school friends to death! We are all in different places now. I feel very sad. I can't share my deepest and true feelings to them since they are all in different places. I couldn't tell my deepest and true emotions to my classmates. They are all very new. They have yet to see my true side. I'm portraying my happy side. I can't portray anything more than happy cause I'm not ready to tell them all the things I'm going through or gone through. Maybe as time goes by, I will slowly able to talk to them about my deepest feelings.

Because of all the above, I've been crying a lot lately. I hope all things will work out the way as I plan earlier this year.

Time for me to go readers.
Toodles.

Yours Sincerely,
XOXO
MZeee

Currently...

Hey readers.... Hahaha I know it's been a long time since I do a post but today,let me just update what's happening in my life as of right now.

I just started school in ITE Clementi.I'm in Leisure & Travel Operations or for short LA. At first I wasn't sure about this new journey. I mean c'mon,you guys will feel the same way if you were in my shoes. I've start everything afresh. Meaning,new environment,people and etc etc. After the 1st day was over, my heart still want my old life back. I thought no one would give me a chance and I'm too scared to trying out new things. 2nd day came and I was still unsure but because of the friendly and understanding classmates,they approached me rather than I approached them. I started slowly speaking but I still think I wasn't ready for all these changes but as the 2nd day goes by,I'm confident that they can make me feel home. So I decided to give them a try and well they were really great. I can feel the warmth and feel very welcome. I know people think ITE is no more future but I know this route will take me some where in life and even if it's a different and long route,at least it'll take me to something I want rather than doing nothing at home which is purely a waste of my time. Now I feel very comfortable in school. I hope my classmates can see this cause I wanna say Thanks for being such friendly towards me. I know I may look like some snorty brat but it's just the way I look. Let's make our 1 1/2 years a fruitful one. :) GO LA!

Well,that's all I can say as of right now and about me being back to blogging is still a question. I don't know whether I should continue cause I feel that because I have a private blog where I can write out all my feelings for that particular day,I feel this blog is getting useless. I know I can post music but I just can't find the time to do all that. May be in the future once I think I'm ready to be doing this all again. For now,let's just leave it the way as it is. :) Thanks for still coming back to my blog even though it's a plain ol' boring place with the background which I don't even bother changing. :)

Goodbye for now but I'll be here again to make a post soon.. Hopefully.

Tomorrow will be a great day...

I can't wait for tomorrow..Will be meeting with besties.. Will be having a movie marathon at Sherry's place (as always). I will be bringing Ninja Assassin's (at someone's request),maybe spy next door and vampire's assistant..Wanted to bring Santau but Sherry has it so I don't need to bring. And I will be starting work again on the 8th March.. Since there's nothing to do at home,better do something. And seriously,I'm anxiously waiting for my DAE results...It's been long I submitted my form and they said it'll arrive 2nd week of March..I hope I get into NYP. I'm nervous for ITE. I'm too scared..But if it happens that I go ITE,I will go without any regrets cause the course I get into is a great course.. And I'm so missing all my work colleagues..Both from Whitesands and BHG Bishan...The funny thing is that I remembered asking Suhaidah who's this one guy and she said it's Paul..When I asked him,he said his name was Shahrul or Sharul or whatever it is spelled but I think you people get it..And I kept talking to him and then I told Suhaidah and her jaws dropped..She thought he wasn't Malay but indeed he was...Then from that day onwards,I kept disturbing her about it..

And I know this blog has become 'dusty'..as what many people would say. But I have other things to be busy about rather than be at the computer 24/7. :) I hope you readers all understand and I can see that there's not much readers/visitors as before..
Maybe a right time but it isn't now...When the time is right,you will see tons of music posts..but right now,I'm going to leave this blog to as it is...Maybe I'll update about my life rather than music but I'll see what I can do...:)
Tata for now readers... Muacks...
XOXO
MZeee

Gladiator sandals which I can't wait to arrive...

I WANT THESE TO ARRIVE NOW PRETTY PLEASE?! GOSH ALL THIS WAITING IS MAKING ME HAVING SLEEPLESS NIGHTS..LOL! I JUST LIED.. HAHAHA..

The anticipated day has arrived

For nearly 2 months,I've waited for my results and today is the day where I'll received my results...I'm speechless.Last time,I would continue ranting about when will I receive my results but today,I wish it would be postponed!I'm just too nervous to receive it.I'm scared to receive bad news.I don't want to weap tears of sorrow.It's just too much.Waiting for the clock to strike 2 is really nerve-wrecking.Now with only hours left,I'm sitting here in front of the computer typing this post and also praying hard in my heart that I'll be weaping tears of joy and satisfied with the results.I may not be the most hardworking person but I sure do tried my best.I hope all pays off today.GOSH!I think I should be getting ready to go school cause it'll probably my last time walking those corridors and run between classes.Eat those snacks in school.It is just sad that all has to end.The school has been great even though I don't have much enjoyable moments cause I rather be quiet or be with the same people but this year,I've moved around and it's so much fun to hang around others too even though we may not spend most of the time together but all of them are very entertaining.It's shame that I only experience it only a year.Toodles...I hope I will post a good post in the next one..Goodbye for now. :)

Girlicious - Over You (1st Single)

Here's Girlicious 1st single for their sophomore effort which is due this year.Since the radio rip leak,I've been jamming to it.Now,the HQ have leak and it has just make me love the song even more...I can't wait for their new album since I love their debut which was full of great and potential single.Unfortunately,they only had 3 singles.Hope they come back stronger than before and maybe this time,they'll come out from Canada and release their album all over the world.They deserve it.Now,enjoy this until they release a new single or the album..Thanks.

Link:

http://www.multiupload.com/XIZCD0Q0ED

Charice - Pyramid (Not Final Version)

Here's Charice new single,Pyramid.This isn't the final version but this is good enough for now.The final versionn would feature Iyaz but this version features a male singer but I'm not sure who is the singer..I'm happy that she's achieved her dreams.It's easy to dream but it's hard to work towards it.I love her and her life story is really sad.Do buy it legally when it comes out...

Charice - Pyramid
Link:
http://www.multiupload.com/M1R7S2RVLR

It's sad....

Firstly,I want to say that my examinations are over BUT I'm not officially back to blogging as I promised at the start or somewhere during this year cause I would maybe go find myself a temporary job so that time is not wasted.I do have a life.. :D

Secondly,I feel lonely after my examinations.Maybe because there's no more school.How I wished school was still on.Sighed. I can't do anything about it.

Thirdly,I feel that getting a job is difficult than I expected! Gosh! It feels like waiting for something which will never happened...Can't they just say,"I'm sorry but you're not eligible or You did not get the job" on the spot?! I hate waiting! I too want to live life as a normal kid with no boundaries and now I to restrict myself from my image and everything! Damn! I wanna highlight my hair and eat as much as I want but all these endless waiting is making me go crazy.I know my body size is an issue for me to get jobs but if I chose to slim down,I feel like it's not me.I don't want to be sad. I just want to be me.I know fashion industry don't allow plus sized people to work in that industry but can't you give us a chance?It's killing me from the inside alright!
From one interview to the other,I've been rejected to work because of my size(I think).Pathetic excuse in my opinion!

Lastly,I don't know what to post for music...It seems like I've been away for too long that I lost my 'mojo'. LOL! I seem not interested in posting new music but I want to share what is new.Well,there's google though.Thank God.

Let me just end this post now alright...Good bye.